I was flipping through my Facebook newsfeed on Monday when a status update from YogaDownload.com caught my eye:
(paraphrased) Try not making a permanent decision for your temporary emotion. Take some deep breaths if you are upset or emotional before you decide to speak. Words are powerful and cannot be taken back!
And I thought…wow — are you in my head right now?
For all the ways in which I am an organized, Type A, measured person, I have a small but vocal side to my personality that includes in-the-moment reactions to people and events. More often than not, I react in the moment and pay for it — with apologies or embarrassment — later.
I had an emotional breakdown this weekend over something very small. A cupcake. I wanted one in the worst way, but couldn’t get my hands on one. Could I have made my own? Yup, but the thought of measuring ingredients overwhelmed me. Could I have found a store that carried them? Yes, but that involved traveling when I wanted it now now now the way I wanted it now now now.
Bratty, I know.
I flipped out at the person closest to me (poor husband) and got my crazy emotions out on the table. And even in the moment, I knew that I wasn’t really upset over a cupcake. I was overwhelmed at some other big decisions that I’m facing in my life, and choices that need to be made. I’m struggling with balancing some projects that I’m committed to, and being the best at everything I do.
Thankfully, my emotional outburst was short with no permanent consequences. But if I’d been in a different situation, I could have really made life difficult on myself or others. That would suck.
This message spoke to me this week, and I thought it might resonate with some of you, too.